Thursday, January 04, 2007
havent been updatin 4 sum time alr.. jz didnt noe wat 2 write.. 2day, quite sad & no1 2 tok 2.. so jz wanna let everythin out here... i wish my post does nt hurt ne1.. n if it does, my heartfelt apologies.. i really dun wanna hurt ne1.. jz wanna pour out my feelins here.. isnt dat d purpose of d blog?well.. spinnovex has started & my grp is in it... supposed 2 b "hip hip hurray" moment 4 me.. bt sumhow d excitement is nt there... proj is displayed in d SP Dream Home... nt every1 is interested in our proj.. they're more interested in d PEC, Personal Entertainment Capsule, which is rite nxt 2 ours.. cant blame them lah.. ours is actually borin.. i really luv d PEC 2.. its sumthin i really really nd... jz lock myself up.. away frm d world... haiz...
neway, i really feel v left out there.. dats y every opportunity i gt 2 go out i jz go.. d part of d dream hm i m in is mainly dominated by chinese.. nt dat i dun like chinese... bt sumtimes when they start talkin in chinese, im tryin 2 find a way 2 gt outta there... bt d ppl there r vvvvvv frenly... once u start tokin 2 them, they tok 2 u v nicely.. joke ard wif u n everythin.. i alr wasnt in a gd mood 2day cos of my damn eye.. mayb dats y i felt so moody 2day.. andy was tryin 2 gt me 2 mix ard wif d others... thnx boss!! i'll b more frenly tml.. =)
so after spinnovex i jz came hm str.. moody.. realized dat my past frenz dun really wanna hang out wif me nemore.. true.. im much more borin than last time.. bt still... time & time again.. sumthin always gives me d feelin dat i m all alone in dis world.. i c other ppl goin out n havin fun.. me?? i either mt my bf or go hm n rot.. currently i jz feel so left out n alone..
crap... i sound so whiny bt... sry... i dunno if its my character dat ppl dun like... m i 2 unfrenly? m i jz a sucky person 2 begin wif?? i really dunno wats d prob.. n i dun think i wanna noe nemore.. rite now, i dun have d energy 2 change myself...
gr8.. my stoopid eye is givin me a fever now.. better go take d antibiotics... i still havent finish d batch d doc gave.. hehe... i jz hate takin it lah.. i dun like med!! lol.... im back 2 my old self.. no1 2 tok 2 abt my probz... so i jz tok 2 myself.. joke ard wif myself & gt better... haha.. when i was younger, i used 2 write letters 2 GOD.. i will tell him 2 jz take me 2 him.. wudnt life b much better wif HIM??
CrApPeD aT 8:55 PM.